Wandering through the dark,
Escaping the hidden mark,
Running away from U,
In the shadows of the dark!
I feel entrapped!
I feel entrapped in the promised embrace,
The embrace lasting eternity,
free from the clutches of this fraternity.
Unable to decide, if this is reality.
Longing for that kiss of love,
So much! so much! So much!
I feel life draining from me,
As I am walking away from U,
I feel darkness creeping in me.
Seeping in me the poison of fear!
Unable to carry the burden of this secret,
I fall apart, deprived of tears,
& I keep walking way from U.
Ashamed,afraid and full of disgust,
Fearful of my fears coming true,
I just keep walking away from U!
Walking past the memento of our friendship,
With lowered eyes, across the legend of our friendship,
I feel scared of the thoughts creeping in me,
The hollow whispers seeking the weakness in me.
The moist fragrance of our steps that’s there,
Draws me closer to our presence that’s there.
Visions of our snaps flashes across my eyes,
Blinding me through those glimpses in the skies.
Memories of love, of laughter, of care,
Memories of pain, & fear we shared,
All that’s there to me, to you,
All that’s there from cheers to hue,
Everything just floods my mind,
& I go numb as these memories unwind.
All my energies drain in front of the Pacific,
I feel exhausted & this ain’t specific.
But, I walk alone each day, each night,
Right past this legend to add to my plight!
And, I long for your presence here,
With the cheers and joys of this fare!
Feeling a pang of pain across my limbs,
The one bond denied was not a fling.
Catapulting the emotions through a sling,
There’s no particular favor in this chaos and meddling.
Disrupting the lives of all we love,
Emotions and feelings all go numb.
The way they do, what they do,
Is far from right, they overdo!
The orthodox behavior, they call religion,
Is a part of the past, a call to legion!
Why just can’t they see, there’s a lot they oversee!
Watching through the binoculars of the past, they can’t see,
The smiles of the present and the jubilee,
That we hold in one can’t be transferred with a glee!
Emotions are fragile, and they can’t always be
Molded and soldered to fit just anybody!
Devastating the trust that we hold in you,
You blame only us, for the fear in you!
Leaving us to the one we love,
You won’t lose us to our dear love.
The thoughts and emotions that forced you to say,
Words of distrust & experience this day!
The brutal truth that we faced this day,
Will show up again, again some day!
The addiction of that intoxicating presence
The aura of that unbelievable essence
Amazes me and would continue to do so
But it’s hard to accept and harder to let go
The thought of losing a friend in you
& the fact, there’s nothing I can do
Just aggravates the pain that follows
The agony of companionship moving towards shallows.
The more I think, the more it clears,
I owe you more, than just tears.
The moments of cheers that we shared
Would be more memorable to me, than we cared!
Your guidance has been the light in the dark
& my life has become a walk in the park.
Though saying ‘Good Bye’ is hell lot of a pain
I would always look forward to meet U again!
Why I write, I don’t know
to make myself clear, or let you know?
But, who are you I am talking about!
I don’t know, I scream out loud.
The beauty of Life, Uncertainty?
or the basis of Life, Relativity!
To whom I address, it doesn’t matter
every second of life is my alma mater
To live the life, that’s living to love,
Is what I seek from the sacred dove.
Chasing the fact that I am fulfilling a prophesy,
is strong enough thought to relish the Ecstasy.
The cheers, the pain, the sorrows of Life
make it worth all our strife.
Still, we remorse for the loss at hand,
Neglecting the fact that that wasn’t at hand.
I want U to listen to all my pain,
A Pain thats fake and this is rather plain.
Clear my buffs, of all I love
Engulf me with life and HIS true Love!
Mocking at me, count by count
Confiscating my pride in every round
They laugh at me, loud and wide
Washing my efforts, with a yet new tide
They come in numbers and take all the time
Me and others, all fall in lines.
One after the other, the victims they chose
All fall prey, to the lure of the cruise.
To sail above them, mighty it seems,
it ain’t possible without a bruise to the sheen.
We take it on us and face it all,
Not for the fear, lest, we should fall,
Not for the tall claims, we make,
Or, the bold statements, we fake.
But, coz it is, what we love,
Coz, we know, their origin is us,
Coz, we know, we have it in us,
To squash all bugs and garner trust!
Why is it? That I always stop?
Standing at the brink, seconds, from fall.
Thoughts in my mind, memories and walls,
Stop in my mouth, seconds, from fall.
Desires that I crave, grand and grave,
Stop in my mind, dig their grave!
Am I brave? Or am I weak?
Why is it that I never weep?
Am I strong? For I don’t know!
Why can’t I follow the row?
All I love, all I hate,
Snatched from me as my fate.
Hiding myself, from the truth that is,
I have forgotten, what the truth really is!
Afraid of even my own self
I search through my eyes, my true self.
Lost in this wild, and hungry dearth,
I question, why the hell am I on this Earth?