Posted in Close to my Heart, My Questions

I perceive

Drifting further from that distant dream,
falling prey to the lure with a scream,
A dream within a dream of a bed of roses
vaporizing like a relief, a mirage proposes.
I try to hold it, in my thoughts, in my arms,
but, it slips and confuses, like dusk and dawn
Perplexed by the loss, I welcome despair
But, I swear to God, that’t not the worst of my fears
I fear no wrath, no wreath, no wraith,
No fear of judgement or someone’s rage
What I fear is losing my wonderful dream
The tranquil relations and their lustrous gleam
With every passing moment, I slip downstream
Losing yet another second of this beautiful dream
Like thick white mountain mist over the valley fields
Vanishing into thin air without any yield
This abysmal force, degrades and deceives,
All that love stands for, the truths and the beliefs
This quandary jeopardizes everything I believe,
Is there any Love, or just something I falsely perceive!

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The Storm Inside Me!

There’s a storm inside me, a storm of wild emotions,
a storm that’s active and reacts to every sensation.
It makes me uneasy and eats up all my reaction,
all my words and all my expressions.

It confuses me and everyone around me,
Creating false illusions all around me.
It alters my character & all I am,
Confusing even myself of what I am.

It shakes not just my emotions, but my very foundation.
Tried a lot of methods, anger, love, even meditation.
But all in vain, I am unable to reduce its pain,
The quandary that’s present, makes it look like a game.

This storm has created a vacuum inside me,
where all my emotions are trapped and they plea to be free
But they are unable to fight the thoughts:
That they have been trapped for far too long to be sought.

And though they have lost significance & no longer matter,
They are always in a state of constant conflict & batter.
Trapping even what I want to say now, what I feel now.
But I am trapped in this vicious circle, I don’t know how!